Thursday, January 22, 2009
@ Thursday, January 22, 2009
I think I'm out of my mind right now ;
Tring ;
Waiting ;
Hoping ;
VANISHED right in front of my eye!
I'm not happy -
THE FACT
I was hoping i seen something wrong or maybe I was dreaming. Certainlly it wakes me up from my Fairytale world and pulls me down to hell ; drown me in pain
I thought I wont mind but I do!
I really care and oh guess what?
I was staring front high on top and that second I feel like throwing a rock down or maybe a blade or something ;
Oh that shows how angry I am right now!
Maybe one day you got cutted on your leg or maybe your heart hurts alot ;
I would be the one who will be looking at you suffering in pain ;
Cos that second I really feel like slapping you right on the spot.
Oh tell me how bad I am, I'll still feel like it!
I pinched sheanie to release my anger and it felt better for a while but its just for a while =/
Tell me ; What she have that I don't?
Which part? Tell me T.T
Why would you do this to me?
Even you push a blade deep inside my chest ; I dont think I'll feel a thing -
No pain could replace the pain of getting hurt :(
You'll never notice ;
After all this shits, You expect me to talk and smile like there's nothing in my mind or maybe nothing happened?
Sorry ;
I can't do that =/
I can't be that way ;
The second you're behind me, I stopped ;
I can't face you and smile ,
I keep thinking maybe I'm just thinking too much but why now?
I cried fr fucks ;
Cried untill there's no more tears to cry anymore :(
I want to be nice but not this way ;
And whathehell la ;
The scene that I don't wanna watch just keep happening in front of my eyes ;
I would just shout if I could =/
I've been walking around trying not to see ; hoping not to bang into you and watch something I never wanna watch ;
but at last , I still bang into you =="
faith?
I tried to stay strong ,
..but everytime when i tried you'll pull me down and make me weak again ;
I'm still trying and I'll never stop trying ;
No matter how many time you pull me down, I'll get up again and fight with the pain ; to be stronger inside.
I can't promise you how long I could fight the pain ;
One day the war will be over ;
ps; This post will be deleted when I'm happier with you!
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