Tuesday, February 17, 2009
@ Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I fucking beh tahan already lah! Read my blog if you want ; say whatever you want cause the only way for me to let it all out is to BLOG ABOUT IT!
Oh what the ever youuu X)
Ever since you said I changed, things were going up down left right in & out.
Yesss! & so, I admit I'd changed (since you love saying it)
& why can't you just accept the fact? I'd changed, so?
At first you said I wasnt good enough, Wanting more touch blabla. & so, I Changed ; Then you said I changed wrongly so I Changed again ; Then you want me to be more loveable or whatever it is. I Changed again ; And I'm so tired chaging to dunno whaaat already. What else can I change into?
I'mma mess now :(
You cried ; I creid too =(
I cried alot, really! Untill I'm like really scared to even read my msgs nor msn you.
I wanted to pm you in msn but oh, I close it all.
I tried 6 times but typing hello half way, I closed it again
I don't want to hurt you but turnout you're still getting hurt :(
blame me, Blame all you want but its not gonna change anything.
I FUCKING LOVE YOU OKAY
This is Not a game to play & there's no game!
Even there is one, I give up!. You win!
you want it, take it.
I'm tired fighting over small matters and it just come and go no matter how much I tried avoiding it ><
Today we might be happily smilling, looking in each other's eyes & tomorrow there will be arguements, shouting, this & that!
Maybe I can start arguements everytime I had my period coming but thats just for a while, cause my mood do swing around alot :(
& I guess I just want you to know ;
Everytime I said Its over,
I don't mean what I said T_T
Everytime I walk away, I was hoping you could come after me ;
I don't wanna look back or look at any reflective windows to see you're behind or not.
I don't want this to end but somehow I knew its gonna end.
Maybe I dont really understand you, because I'm not you.
I really hope this is a dream but there's is no more waking up! :(
AGAIN :
I din't threw ANYTHING away untill you keep saying I'm throwing everything away.
Oh the truth is, I don't know how to face you anymore=/
I'm not giving you any fake smiles anymore cause you should see how it goes.
I love you & I don't want you to leave but if you really think thats this is best for both of us. Then yeah ; do whatever you want ><"
Cause I'm really thinking thaaat you're actually looking for reason to break us off :(
I'd put much effort trying, you know.
I seriously did :(
I know you din't see anything & Your ex-girlfriends definally treat you better then I do :(
I have to accept thaaat!
I even saw some
Maybe you still love her cause some day, you might fall for your exs' again!
Oh anyway baby, Loving you makes my life worst TOOOO!
but yeah, I still love you cause i REALLY DO!
Oh come on, You're making me hate you. In the same time, loving you more!
SO STOP IT
Pissed at me? I've been waiting for this! Come, Kill me pls ><"
I am so tired of you & your oh-so-nice attitude! (I know i had my oh-so-nice attitude too!)
Why are you soooo unsatisfied? I don't understand? what else more you want from me?
Don't the stars look so pretty?
They're there to say
"Don't worry, everything's okay."
To remind us that time is running out on us,
so don't fall asleep, you might regret it.
The night is ours tonight.
Yeah & so, just to let you know. What you said the other night really hurts me.
I love you and so, I'll still love you no matter we're together or on our own ways.
forever ; I'll say.
Still I'm really sorry for the mistakes that I've made and Thanks for the bitter sweet memories, really ;
I'm telling you, you don't want to fall for me. You don't even wanna be with me. I’d make a terrible girlfriend. I'm horrible at keeping in touch with people; I'd forget to call. I change my mind way too much and i love going out with friends; I can't settle. I've fallen in love and had my heart broken, more than once by the same boy. I lost the pieces so don't bother trying to put them back together. I'd never cheat on you but i'd make you worry. You don't want to fall for me, but i'm falling for you. And if it's okay with you, i want to change all those things about me, just to be with you. (:
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